long way to bais

i was annoyed... really annoyed!!!!

of him... i kinda speak bad words against him....

my emotions are very high...

it@34#$! yaaahhhhaaaaaaggrreeedddddtttwwrrrrmmmnngggsszzzyykll....////

taking time!!!

i was reminded to submit my paper.. but i have no energy to do it. not even an interest. 

poor me...

i will live in mediocrity!

but of course i don't want to..

is he thinking of me? what is he doing right now? am i in his thoughts..

because he is in me...

i always imagine giving him a kiss, a hug, a smooch... or whatever it takes....
i miss him so much... 

i miss him so much.. but he is in his family... his own family...

me.. i'm just a thing in the past...

existed only for his pleasure!...

...

...

to be or not to be...

three days from now, inay will be off to batangas with tatay.

i will be left behind with all the stuff of pampering myself and making these and that..

it's almost 4 days since he left.. 

i miss him really..

the way he touches my hand. the way he looked at me. the way he calls my name. i am blown away.

not yet done with my papers. i'm loosing my driven stamina. haayyy... need to focus or else... 

by the way, as i go back last thursday night!!! those advantages on me will lead to intimate moments,,,,, into sex!

i was so naive to see it that way.. in fact i have no idea at all...

i was stunned when he insisted kissing me... i was drunk.. but i know what's going on...

by the way, the videoke thing, i enjoy the gesture of touching my hands  and holding it secretly... i like the feeling!!!

as we dance, i could see the smile in himt!..

but i need to focus... or else... or else... i might end up in regret at the end. 

REGRET! the word that i would like to erase in my vocabulary!...
i thank GOD for this... 

thank you GOD i feel so alive!